Yesterday, I decided it was time to go clean up. As dramatic as it may seem, I had left my own home to completely separate myself from surroundings that both triggered my alcoholism, and made it comfortable as well. I had left pretty abruptly, a backpack full of random clothes, my keys, and my wallet. … Continue reading Beer Cans
December 11th, 2018 So, they say you still dream when you go to sleep after alcohol, you just don't remember them. It's been about 5 days since my last drink, and holy shit my brain feels like a circus while I'm "sleeping" if that's what you want to call it. From all the information I've … Continue reading Whoa, Dreams.
There was a conversation I had a couple days ago in which I was describing the worries I had about missing out on things when alcohol wasn't going to be a part of my life anymore. Looming uneasiness that there would be a great disconnect from the world I was so addicted to, as if … Continue reading Missing Out
December 10th, 2018 I believe the stages of detox are beginning to wind down. Sleeping will prove to be difficult again, however it may just be that I have a shoddy mindset going into it. I say that the symptoms are dwindling because I'm noticing not only subtle, but significant changes in my body and … Continue reading Light through the blinds.
December 10th, 2018 Medical insurance and coverage. If you don't have that, I wish you the best of luck in finding immediate care for anything similar to what I'm searching for. To recap this morning, I first contacted my insurance provider, Blue Cross Blue Shield. My coverage does not begin until the first of the … Continue reading Doctors and Diligence
December 9th, 2018 (2:30 pm-10:50pm) I'm still very fresh into this, about 50 or so hours. I feel pretty anxious and nervous today. I slept like absolute crap, which is expected. From what I've read, I can presume this to be fairly constant for up to a few weeks. You don't have to be … Continue reading Brain Activity
Dec 8th-9th, 2018 - The title of this post relates to a pair of things, two beginnings and two ends. First, the beginning of my decade or so "relationship" with alcohol, and the inevitable end of my drive to create a successful, meaningful, and fulfilling adult life. The lengthy body of this, in a nut … Continue reading The Beginnings and the Ends