Beer Cans

Yesterday, I decided it was time to go clean up.  As dramatic as it may seem, I had left my own home to completely separate myself from surroundings that both triggered my alcoholism, and made it comfortable as well.  I had left pretty abruptly, a backpack full of random clothes, my keys, and my wallet.  …

Whoa, Dreams.

December 11th, 2018 So, they say you still dream when you go to sleep after alcohol, you just don't remember them.  It's been about 5 days since my last drink, and holy shit my brain feels like a circus while I'm "sleeping" if that's what you want to call it. From all the information I've …

Missing Out

There was a conversation I had a couple days ago in which I was describing the worries I had about missing out on things when alcohol wasn't going to be a part of my life anymore.  Looming uneasiness that there would be a great disconnect from the world I was so addicted to, as if …

Light through the blinds.

December 10th, 2018 I believe the stages of detox are beginning to wind down.  Sleeping will prove to be difficult again, however it may just be that I have a shoddy mindset going into it.  I say that the symptoms are dwindling because I'm noticing not only subtle, but significant changes in my body and …

Doctors and Diligence

December 10th, 2018 Medical insurance and coverage. If you don't have that, I wish you the best of luck in finding immediate care for anything similar to what I'm searching for. To recap this morning, I first contacted my insurance provider, Blue Cross Blue Shield.  My coverage does not begin until the first of the …

Brain Activity

December 9th, 2018 (2:30 pm-10:50pm)   I'm still very fresh into this, about 50 or so hours.  I feel pretty anxious and nervous today.  I slept like absolute crap, which is expected.  From what I've read, I can presume this to be fairly constant for up to a few weeks.  You don't have to be …

The Beginnings and the Ends

Dec 8th-9th, 2018 -  The title of this post relates to a pair of things, two beginnings and two ends.  First, the beginning of my decade or so "relationship" with alcohol, and the inevitable end of my drive to create a successful, meaningful, and fulfilling adult life.  The lengthy body of this, in a nut …